September 15th 2007

guess while many of you're busy studying for prelims, there's only me who's so crazy to do thise kind of thing during this kind of the year. haiz...had a realli heated argument wif my dad last night and i left home after that. yupp...i didnt go home last night.

it really isnt my fault seriously. lemme tell u all wad happened. my relationship wif my dad is pretty strained as u all noe...n my dad and mum r like those kind of going-to-divorce couple. no i shldnt even call them a couple...they dun even talk to each other now. its realli very sad to be in this kind of family...seriously. and sometimes u get realli envious of those families in movies where the dad kisses mum goodbye before he leaves for work, tucks his children into bed and tells them bedtime stories b4 they sleep or even like go out as a family. but look...all these r missing in my life. my dad hates my mum, n my mum hates my dad. they dun tok to each other, much less kiss or whatsoever. a meal tgt as a family? nah...forget it...i dun even consider it a family dinner...it feels so weird. its too quiet!

yupp...so i told all of these to my dad, hoping tt he could understand the kind of situation i'm in...but i didnt tell him personally...i emailed him. n instead of trying to show concern...he flared up yesterday and started defending his plight and a heated argument started. he told me to leave home, and so i did. i went to bathe, changed and was preparing to leave when he suddenly told mi tt he didnt mean wad he said. heck! i packed my bio notes and a spare change of clothes and went downstairs. another round of heated argument started. anw...forget about the details...i shant elaborate on them. anyway...i juz left home n stayed overnite at jon's place. seriously...i don't know where the hell i went wrong. i realli don't. seriously i'm puzzled. i'm not a delinquent. i study, i dun smoke gamble take drugs join gang or wadeva...but...i realli dun understand...WHY???

mebe i was wrong abt leaving home. but sometimes i realli can't accept how he treats my mum. no he doesnt beat her or wad but its juz sthg i shant elaborate on too. it realli sux to be living in this kind of family. next time...if i ever do get married and have kids of my own...i'll never...never...follow my dad's footsteps.