title: away frm skl...

there can be nothing better than a break frm anything else in the world. imagine taking a break, frm all troubles, work, everything in the world...u dun have to manage relationships, dun have to bother abt work, ur health. juz imagine tt u r an immortal, relieved frm all mortal woes. how wonderful can tt get? how wonderful can tt get....?

my grandma is down wif depression. should have guessed it frm as early as the beginning of tis year. she's getting more naggy, more desperate to find someone tt she can communicate wif, more hot-tempered, more violent. she's being diagnosed yesterday, when my aunt, uncle, dad n mum brought her down to see a doctor. n furthermore, my dad n mum's relationship was so strained fer the past few weeks tt it seemed tt they were gonna divorce. n my dad mentioned tt to me juz a few days ago. abt divorcing wif my mum. i got nothing to sae xcept telling him to "carry on wif it so as long as he feels tt tt works out best fer the both of them". i mean, c'mon, y hang on to a relationship tt has become "stale", or in other words, lack of love. wad is the purpose of a marriage...its to give each other love n support. n i found the lack of these in my parents. well...my grandma's depression seemed to have brought them a little closer...at least they talk now...at least it seemed tt my grandma's depression had ended their cold war.

i juz hope...tt all of these problems would not happen to mi when i grow up. having parents tt is suffering frm all kinds of ailments. not tt i do not wish to take care of them, not tt i do not wish to be burdened, but i do not wish them to suffer, and my kids to suffer. cuz...currently, i juz can't stand my grandma sometimes when she scolds the maid n my poor bedridden grandfather fer no apparent reason. its vexing u noe...n sometimes i juz wish to juz disappear frm home...so tt i do not have to hear her scolding and complaining abt everything under the sun.

affairs of the heart...they r so...so...vexing...so complicating...how do u noe whether u like a girl? how would u noe tt u r not juz attracted by her looks? how would u differetiate between love n infatuation? how would u noe tt a girl likes u? erm...4get abt all of them dude...they'll juz mess up ur life. haiz...but i realli wish fer a companion. someone tt u can spend time wif...someone whom u can pour ur heart out to...someone whom u can rely on at all moments...someone who cares...someone hu u can go out wif so tt u do not have to roam shopping malls all by urself. i mean...C'MON! every guy wants a girlfren rite? okok...wadeva lar...hahaz...

2dae is service learning day. do not have to go to skl. yeah! can slp longer. hahaz...n we have to go to tis day care centre in sengkang. ok...some kids r realli rebellious, esp. some of the older girls...cuz they r so..."ah-lian" i m in charge of the p4s...n its juz hilarious to see them. cuz they r so innocent, so carefree...they juz play...seeing the smile on their faces juz gives mi a sense of joy. there's tis guy frm nan chiau primary under my care...(oops...i 4got his name). he's juz so hilarious...joker. hahaz...he imitates his teacher's every movement, n juz shares some lame jokes wif mi. n i juz can't stop laufing at how ridiculous he can get. hahaz....n he even said tt xuan feng is ha;f malay half indian. hahaz...during games...its super corny. we r playing poison ball. then choon kiat got hold of the ball. threw...n it hit mrs. ang on her chest. hahaz... n the whole S19 was like laufing away...saying tt he's a goner fer bio liao...cuz mrs. ang is gonna fail every single paper he takes. hahaz...a gd lauf. but i tink mrs. ang's hurt or sthg...cuz its like i can hear the impact lar...omg...

oh...n clarence is oso damn farni...kip saying tis p4 girl damn chio...n 10 yrs down the road he will go chase her. hahaz...then on our way back frm the mama shop, clarence was complaining abt the lump beneath his chest. n he was worrying so much tt its breast cancer. hope tt he will be fine though.

i dun realli like service learning, but it was indeed a good opportunity to get out wif ur classmates. spend a day wif them, understanding them better...expose urself to kids, n to understand wad a lovable bunch of ppl they are. its a good break frm skl...n its meaningful too, cuz its cip...n summore can earn cip points. hahaz...but well...bonding wif ur classmates n skl mates is the main issue. tis day, will be etched into my mind 4eva...





title: EASES

haiz...finally got all my 2pid CT marks back. n they sux. absolutely. nvr in my life failed 2 subj. fer my exams. n my passes arent great either. i m so disappointed wif myself. look.

GP: 48.5% (to be rounded up to 50%, which is an E)
Chinese: 77% (A)
Biology: 42.3% (S)
Chemistry: 43.6% (S)
Mathematics: 47.9% (E)

gawd! wad's tt? EASES?dots. haiz...

half-day off 2dae. cuz of last time. SAJC clinged 2 gold medals, which granted us a half-day. dismissed @ 12.45 instead of the usual 2.45. phew. not much actually, but enuf to be appreciative of it.

SHE's "FOREVER" new songs + hits is OUT 2dae! gonna get it later. can use WL's sembawang voucher fer it. hehe...then perhaps oso can get jolin's "dancing diva" celebratory edition. hahaz...hopefully can get the posters if have...

2dae had bio SPA. duno how i will do oso. seemed alrite, but tis things we cannot be sure of. anw...thanks to tze wei fer hinting to mi wad will be coming out.

gonna sign off. finish my chem prac n i should be out to get the albums. ^-^





title: inspirational

exams r over, but i m not at all elated over tt. y? cuz of my results. hahaz...failed bio n chem...both like ~43% haiz...but chinese as usual A1 lor...77%. oops...becoming conceited liao...hahaz...no lar...juz gimme a chance to show off my chinese can? cuz i realli have no other quality tt i can showcase liao. in terms of looks...i got none...in terms of studies, i m nowhere near any of my smart frens, in terms of height, i lose to batman, in terms of muscle size, i lose to superboy, in terms of character, i m rotten (but still have lotsa moral values)hahaz...nothing leh. practically NOTHING tt i can be proud of in my life. in class, i luv to joke joke...of course at the right moment lar...NOT WHEN THE TEACHER's TEACHING OF COURSE!

hahaz...i sound sad right? hahaz...no lor...i dun...i have a positive outlook in life...hahaz...its the truth tt i failed...but its from where i failed that i can gain a learning experience, n improve my biology and chemistry. it is when i failed tt i gained tis mysterious motivation force within me now to study harder...no one's a failure, unless he himself deems tt he is. failures r part of life, arent they. they form a learning process, dun they. even in soccer, the world cup...the teams tt r out have to return home to formulate new strategies to counter attack in the next world cup season. they have to practise more, to polish up their skills. n all these require lotsa hard work. u reap wad u sow...so i dun believe those ppl hu claimed tt they didnt study n do well. such miracles dun happen. at least i didnt encounter them. go ahead...blame it on how narrow my insights on life is, but frm my understanding, it isnt impossible to do well if u didnt work hard!

yes...i did spend 3 weeks of my hols studying fer bio...n i even spent another week after skl reopened to go thru the notes fer the 2nd round. fer chem, i studied once during hols, n another time b4 the exam. but i still failed. y? because i have come to realise tt all tt i have done is all ineffective study. i didnt practice the TYS, neither did i fully concentrate on my studies when i should. tt's the reason y i failed. INEFFECTIVE STUDY. i did study...but done so ineffectively. THERE YOU GO! a new learning experience fer mi. wad i have learnt: JC is not abt how much u study b4 the exams...its the consistent hard work tt u put into ur revision, the passion fer ur subjs., the blood n sweat u have spilled over u notes memorising them. the hours u spent on studying, the heart n soul n effort tt u have put in to make an effort to revise wad was taught. tt's where success lies: consistency and hard work. i lack these...tt's y i failed.

nvm...there's always a greener pasture on the other side rite? n tt greener pasture lies in the october promotional examinations. if u start now, work hard now, start being consistent in ur revision now, the exams then r there to be conquered. hu cares whether how badly u did in ur CT? hu cares? u care. u care abt ur own results. wad's tt faking 20% of our CT gonna make a diff in our results? our promos r 60-70%! tt's crucial! i may fail now. BUT...IF...i were to start now, work hard now...sow the seeds, i should be able to reap the "harvest" in oct. i believe i can do it. if i believe...so should u...





title: tao gua

burp! yes...i'm feeling damn bloated now, although i had dinner like abt. 3 hrs ago. didnt eat alot, xcept the tao gua (beancurd). aiya...my maid duno how to fried lar..fried until so oily. my mum shouldnt have let her fried tt. u noe ah...i squeese the tao gua ah...then like half a teaspoon of oil come out...n its onli a piece (measuring about 2 cm by 2 cm n 0.5cm in thickness) YES! its disgusting right? n i didnt realise it had tt much oil in it until i was playing wif a peice of it at the veri end of my dinner! ahhhh! no wonder i was feeling strangely bloated tis dinner. haiz...so folks! stay away frm oily food if u wanna eat more!

trying every method to cleanse tt oil in my stomach to feel less bloated so tt i can retire fer the day. popped 3 vitamin C pills but its like 2 hrs liao...still doesnt work. so now trying green tea... hope tt its caffeine content wouldnt kip mi awake fer the rest of the nite! =.="

oh...shaun n tze wei asked mi out fer lunch on my birthday 2 days ago. at fish n co. n they bought mi a rather kiddy but entertaining comic called "The Calvin and Hobbes LAZY SUNDAY BOOK" n tze wei wrote a short n sweet message in the book. hahaz..thx shaun n tze wei fer the comic n paying fer the fish n co GST. hahaz... =)

met them at 12 at ps. n finished everything by 1.20 liddat...super fast i noe...hahaz... but too bad lar...in the midst of exams...so cannot go walk walk or watch muvee n stuff...

maths! inequalities is so damn diff! trying damn hard but like still cannot get the answers everytime. haiz...sad...may god bless mi...





title: happy birthday

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeeeeee, happy birthday to me! congratz JH, u r officially 17 now! yay! NC17 movies! r there such movies? erm...sports fer 17 yr olds! erm...r there such sports? wah diaoz...why can't i be 18?! then at least got m18 movies to watch. haiz...erm wait...hey! i can play snooker now! snooker's fer 17 yr old babies! woohoo! i m 17...!

oh...juz realised 17 is juz such a nice number...fer example...OG17! woohoo!

thx to all hu flooded my phone wif those wonderful birthday greetings at 12am. thx alot. n thx alot to those hu remembered...n WL fer getting mi a gift. its not the matter of it arriving late or early, or on time, but its the heart tt counts. thx WL fer the gift tt as u said "would be arriving on monday" hahaz...actually no nid gift lar...haiz...

oh...thanks to siewjing, minqi, tze wei n estella fer the 12am bdae greetings! thx again! hmmm...tis is becoming like a thankgiving speech isn't it. hahaz... ok... there's more...

thx WL, mrtoot and all of my frens out there fer being such wonderful ppl in my secondary skl life. and thank you all fer being my friends hu have stood by my hardest times during the o levels.

thx OG 17 and OG23 fer adding colours to my life. my life is juz like a white canvas...but u r the people hu added marks n colours to it...making my life, such a vibrant piece of painting...

thx to my dearest PAE 06S15...all of u made me walk out of antisocialism.

thx to jonathan my current classmate n fren in 06S19, hu shared the same degree of lame-ness as me. making all those random jokes n making mi realise like how WL does...how much i suck at pools. n oso, thank you fer motivating me to exercise more and slim down and study hard.

thx to shaun (handsome) fer being so damn bloody handsome...n making me feel so inferior.

thx to cheryl lee fer having so much faith in me as a confidant...sharing wif me all her woes, although i could not help much in alleviating your pain.

thx to shaun, brendan and tze wei, hu r always so "on" fer the ex-cg outings tt i have planned, n always making my presence made felt. thx fer watching movies, going out on the streets of orchard wif me. thank you.

thx to minqi and all readers of my blog out there, fer reading my blog frequently and tagging.

thx to WL again, fer being such a wonderful fren, n making me realise tt i m not as handsome as him, n tt i suck at pools, and helping me wif my skl work in sec 4, made me no longer orchard phobia, following me to gyms, and wishing me luck fer CTs etc.

thx to mrtoot, fer fighting wif me, helping me wif my studies, studying wif me, sharing wif me, lending me games, movies, n everything...in secondary skl. thx fer teaching me how to manipulate the cue-stick so tt i goes to my back and i can do the "poser-shot" at the pool table. and thx fer being my fren in the past, now n future. n thank you fer all the advices u gave me fer CT.

thx to adrian, fer giving me so much motivation in my sec 3 n sec 4, making me feel tt i m in a race against u...to see hu outdos the other in tests n exams. it is u...tt made my improvement in my tests n exams possible. thank you. n thank you fer being my fren and classmate fer 6 yrs, from p5 to sec 4.

thx to charlie, fer being my son, fren and mentor.

thx to all hu talked to me on msn and making me feel less lonely.

thx to all hu brought laughter n fun to my life.

thx to all my teachers hu have brought me thru the journey of life and taught me so much.

thx to my parents fer giving birth to me, suffering out there to earn a living to provide fer mi. tolerating my tantrums, teaching mi the right principles, correcting me when i m wrong, providing me wif a listening ear, bringing me up. and sorry fer bringing both of u so much pain n sorrow as well.

thx to my grandmother hu brought me up, doting on me so much.

thx to my grandfather, hu always arm-wrestled wif mi when i was younger and making me feel tt i m stong. thx fer bringing me to skl when i was younger and giving me money frm time to time.

thx to my uncles n aunties, hu r always so nice to me. buying me stuff. esp. my uncle, hu always buys things fer me, rents TVB series n movies fer me, playing basketball wif me, teaching me how to ride a bike, making delicious fried rice and steam eggs fer me, and all tt u have done.

thx to all my cousins, esp. my biao ge zZzman! fer swinging me when i was a baby sleeping in the sarong. thank you fer spending ur childhood holidays wif me, playing toys wif me, and watching TV wif me. thank you fer all the advices u had fer me in life. thank you fer the songs, MVs, movies, animes tt u have gave me. thanks fer buying me a gundam toy fer my 12th birthday. (hope tt i m right) thank you.

thx to St. Andrew's School, fer being my second home, seeing me grow up. living wif me fer 10 and a half years now.

thx to 06S19, cuz u all r such nice individuals.

thx to jay chou, yang cheng ling, wang leehom, luo zhi xiang, jolin tsai, S.H.E fer being my idols, and providing me wif so much wonderful music and entertainment.

thx to yann kiat and david tan, fer oso being my such wonderful frens.

thank you all fer bring a part of my life...

i m like a jigsaw puzzle, u all fit into my life, piece by piece, making me complete...

i love u all. GOD BLESS!





title: WARNING!

super happy now. GP n bio, the 2 largest hurdle of my CT r over. bio's confirm screwed. GP got slim chance of passing well. haiz...duno y...feel tt i m released liddat. no more stress...well...there's another hurdle lar...chemistry. but it should be alrite. hahaz...wish me luck...byez.





title: exam sux

SYF opening was such a flop. it was a complete disaster fer SAJC...a truly disgraceful event of the year. SAJC was practically one of the overall champions of the A division sports arena tis yr... tt number of gold medals we had won says it all. but SYF could be the one, tt made us lose all our pride. lemme elaborate wad happened on 1st july...the SYF opening ceremony last saturday...

the parade started... yusof is being called out, fer us to raise our flags...but our contigent did not do so.i have no idea no one responded to the command. some others tried to raise theirs, but seeing tt the others did not do so, they hesitated. i admit, i was one of those hu did not raise up, and fer tt, i felt tt i played a part in the skl's undoing. next...the march out...we were supposed to march out of the parade square...and gawd...tong liang told mi after the parade tt i had no sense of rthyme. i was like practically not synchronising wif everyone. i knew tt too myslef. charlie had oso told mi tt a few trngs before. haiz...i felt so lousy...haiz...hope tt the camera did not capture any pics of mi. i hope not...i should have went fer the trngs...i skipped 3...haiz...n now i regretted it.

yesterday was mugging day. and so would 2dae. i haven finish bio. 5 more sets of notes to go. n i have to go thru some GP stuff so tt i would have some content in my pea brain to write abt tmr fer GP essay. tmr will be the worse day... cuz its GP + bio... probably my worst subjects. n i oso have to re-revise my chemistry. n looks like i have to leave tt till tmr. bless my chemistry then. luckily i have abt 5-6 days after my chem paper to revise fer my maths...if maths is on thurs...may the LORD bless mi then, cuz i haven started math revision.

i sort of missed the good old secondary skl days, esp. my frens...i miss every single bit of the skl...haiz...but time can never reverse...i have to carry on wif life, n create a better future for myself, as well as a more enjoyable JC life fer myself. my life...rest in my own hands...

bless mi oh lord. grant mi the strength to overcome the upcoming exams tmr n wednesday, as well as nxt wk's math paper. bless mi...