31st October 2007

ahhhhhh! i'm so happy happy happy. n i haven't been emo-ing for a long tym. perhaps vitamin L could be the cure to anything. i feel blessed to have Rhino in my life. thx for all my bros too. esp. jon,weili,clarence,gary,jason for always being there.thx lord for everything.i'm starting to appreciate everything i have now.really.i muz realli work hard for the Alevels! chiong! like wad weili said...convert tis power of love into energy to drive me for the exams. n i feel motivated.ahhhhh.life...=)





28th October 2007

life has been a rollercoaster ride for mi tis 2 days,juz tt the rollercoaster juz gets stuck at the peak and nvr goes down. tt's my mood. everything's been looking well.i got out of the right side of my bed and i've been able to study well tis days too. ahhh. life's good. i've really got to thank all those hu helped mi along the way,esp. my bros and those new friends i made.its a gift from god.my friends are and so is she.





23rd October 2007

lolx.was looking thru some of my childhood photographs when preparing my sis' bday present when i came across some fotos tt i have totally no recollection of. and i have to admit tt i was young and innocent then or i wldnt have taken those fotos. anw...haha.its pretty cute and i thot tt i might wanna share haha...lolx.


seriously hor its pretty obvious tt i look much better than my sis when we're young. n seriously hor i tink i look handsome when i was 4 yrs old. realli realli. now ah...haiz.


haha.tis one damn cute.tis one is on habit tt i carried all the way from when i was young.influenced by my uncle de.haha.now i even bring my notes to the toilet.lolx.but my sis stopped alr.(i tink lol.)


i have no idea why i even agreed to take tis pic.haha.but its cute la esp. the girl beside mi.lolx.n i tink lost my charm after 4 yrs old.wah kau!


lolx.tis one my youngest bro. damn cute la.u noe why i tink looks are impt? cuz when u're cute,u cld get away wif even murder. yea apparently tis foto was taken after my brother killed my hamster. and he juz sat there as if nth happened. tt look melted my heart and he got away wif murder! (no la i'm kidding abt the murder part haha)

actually there's one more but haha damn shy dun dare shy. but its actually a pic of mi and my sis in our swimming costumes and again i dunno why i posed for the camera again. haha.

they're right.a picture paints a thousand words.these fotos realli revived my childhood memories man. ahhhh....14 yrs ago...





20th October 2007

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesnt stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

(chorus)
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you


I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I cant get near you now

Oh, cant you see it baby
Youve got me going crazy


I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if Im with you
Ill take the chance

Oh, cant you see it baby
Youve got me going crazy





19 October 2007

i bet she noes abt it alr. but she's nonchalant abt it. i oso how it started. how i started to like her. i oso dunno the reason behind how ball-less i had been for the past 2 yrs. how i cld have bottled up all that emotions within myself and not let it out. i cld have done sthg abt it. but she had a bf and trying to go in between them was wrong. she broke up n i know i cld have done sthg. offer her more concern, be by her side to console her. but i did nth of tt sort. wad did it do then? nth. so much tt she doesn't know abt it until recently. wad a loser i'm.

i always try to joke wif her but i realised they were all not farni. i always thot i was a humourous person until i reflected 2dae. NO I'M NOT! wad r my jokes when i talk to guys? make fun of ppl,sae and do stupid things,talk dirty. n i believe tt i shldnt talk dirty to girls. i dunno abt tt though. i was told tt she dun like ppl to do stupid stuff. so i shldnt. and i dun realli wan to kip on making of her or ppl cuz wad big fuck am i to have the bloody right to kip making fun of ppl? so tt makes mi a boring guy? n girls dun like boring guys. wtf.

ok.someone told mi girls like romantic guys. haiz.mebe shld start learning french.another fren told mi girls like musically inclined guys.another fren told mi girls like fun guys.so which is it tt she likes? haha.

i'm super vexed super super super vexed. she's on my mind the whole tym nowadays. i miss her smile. even juz her presence. i always wanna see her and always try to grab opportunities to do so. but i always regret it. cuz when she's not with me,i'll start to tink abt her even more. ahhhhhhhhh. hormones. 2 yrs and its still her.

11 days to A levels and some good fren of mine had to tell mi i have a competitor and i'm losing. so yea wad do u wan mi to do abt it hurh? take action now? tell her how much i like her for 2 yrs? in the first place, have i done enuf to touch her heart? why is the other guy winning? its juz so wrong to be tinking abt all this now but i can't help it.

i have one fren.good looking and girls juz come after him n he doesnt have to do anything. but i noe i'm not and girls wldnt come after me cuz of my looks. so i'm always trying to be a good boy with a good character cuz she mentioned b4 she isnt superficial. guess i've to take more initiatives. saying i like her here wun work. i've to do sthg. like she said b4 "guys shld make the move"

in the meantime.i guess its juz not the right tym for all this. its A levels man, A levels! and to my tt good fren hu will read tis entry, pls dun do anything 2pid nor tag anything stupid.





15th October 2007

damn it.i'm always blocked from my own blog by singnet's filtering service for no bloody reason. they said i HAVE ADULT CONTENT here. right...mebe its juz the swearing...





13th October 2007

juz another random thought as usual. i was tinking of going for plastic surgery and restructure my facial looks, implant hair, liposuction and lasik. haha. hmmm...i tink the first 2 r most impt in the list. i was wondering if plastic surgery could juz reshape ur whole face by moving cartilage here and there, inject some baby fats into my cheeks. hmmm...plastic surgery sounds cool but dun realli noe wad're the implications leh. like will a person hu has unnatural beauty be accepted by society? would the modifications be permanent? will u still age if ur whole face is plastic? lolx...hmmm mebe i shd look up for some courses on plastic surgery in the uni. sounds like sthg cool tt i wld want to embark on.

anw. yesterday *referring to 11th october was farewell assembly. rather meaningful assembly and kc leong n miss k are damn farni. went out wif some class ppl to bukit batok country club for laser challenge and bowling. then met up wif rest of class at somerset heeren village for dinner at 6.30. like i said...i'll miss SA.





10th October 2007

jing hao. u're too distracted by too mani things. a'levels is in 3 weeks time and its time to work. i mean WORK! leave everything aside and study. i mean its juz 3 weeks and tt's it. ur future depends on tt piece of ppr tt u wld be receiving in march nxt yr. not juz future as in studies or work, but also mani other aspects of life. seriously, singapore's standard of living is not rising at all. student's non-material aspects of living are highly compromised. fuck it.

anw jon's top 20 in skl.so happy for him.tmr he'll be receiving some award thingy.haiz.how i wish i could be up there too.but nvm,there's still the A levels, where i would get my first A (hopefully) or mebe even 2 or 3 or 4 or 5. haha. tmr is oso the last day of skl.farewell assembly.take fotos.sae byebye to teachers and frens.and tis made mi realise how much i love skl actually, although i complain abt it all the tym. the gym.the track.the library.the teachers.my frens.the pull-up bar.the LT.the CC.the hall.the basketball court.mebe even the toilet.haha.everything played a part in making my jc life memorable.frens r impt. lemme quote myself: "frens are for life". haha. random entry.





8th October 2007

i realli dunno how to make u be tickled at everything i sae. nope i dun wanna be a clown in your life.i juz wanna u to enjoy my presence as much as i enjoy urs.gimme tym.i'm learning.





5th October 2007

yesterday came across tis website that can download lotsa music. http://www.esnips.com/ quite cool. got jap, korean, chinese, ang moh songs. but its kindda tricky on how to download. haha. GO FIGURE IT OUT URSELF or i'll be caught for promoting piracy. disclaimer: me coming across tis website doesnt mean i'm downloading anything from it. nope nope i'm not downloading frm there. =.="

2dae was quite a farni day. firstly, it was supposed to be a super long day but it seemed rather short. i went to skl onli at 9 tho...

had bio tut till 10.30 then a 2 hr break till 12.30 which is GP. during the break, jon, xuan feng, gary n i were at the library toking a lot of cock. mainly abt our future career. the one abt jon n jason was damn farni. jon wanted to be a doctor while jason a nurse.haha. then i joked tt jon instead of using stethoscope to listen a woman's heartbeat, wld use his ears instead.then jason wld be jon's assistant as nurse ma. then said tt jason wears a tight nurse uniform and high heels. haha. damn farni cuz jason has hairy legs.

then we had a 2 hr GP cuz 1 hr formal lesson + 1 hr consultation. then after the consultation, we were talking to miss *** abt wad course she took at uni. then she said english. haha then gary asked her whether she was in the same class as mr yeo. haha. then she gave tt kind of =.=" face. haha. damn farni. it was the same face across mani teachers' when we tried to relate them to mr yeo. haha. then miss *** said some stuff abt mr yeo tt we all agreed wif and hmmmm...haha...haha...

oh oh. bought one whole stack of other skl bio prelim pprs. sianz. shit. lost count on how mani days liao. erm 20 days la 20 days la. juz to scare myself.





3rd October 2007

2dae's a tiring day. cuz of GP mock exam. shaggged. sighs. it was kindda OKAY i guess. but guess wad sthg farni happened 2dae. 2dae after mock ppr 1 went wif gary to buy ramly burger from cafe. then eating on the way back ma. then damn farni. caught by OM somewhere outside CC.

OM: "why u eating here? come here."

JH: "erm...cuz having mock exam then got short break. nid go back quickly"

OM: "u go there sit down eat. later i hang u on the bamboo tree by ur necktie then u noe"

=.="

haha. the OM so farni one. but i didnt noe he's the OM until 2dae. haha. lolx...

oh oh. tis song frm jolin new album quite meaningful:

能感覺你手很暖和　能感覺你是特別的
當我的手被你牽著　在街頭在風中放縱

隨你到世界最盡頭　隨你上山去放煙火
當你唱著　生日快樂　我感動　你讓我受寵

＊我不再怕什麼　躲什麼　我只想知道你在想什麼
　今天起我的心貼近我的耳朵
　聽你輕輕的　輕輕的　輕輕的說　到底我是你的什麼

我不再怕什麼　躲什麼(說愛我)
我只想知道你愛不愛我(怕什麼)
現在我安靜的　貼在你的胸口
要你說　聽你說　說愛我

我認定你是愛我的　我認定你是認真的
你會愛我天長地久　全世界為我們祝賀



ENOJY! =)





1st October 2007

2dae's children's day. year 2007. n it made mi realise how long i haven't celebrated children's day. 6 YEARS...simply cuz i'm over-aged? haha. but i really miss children's day. although i used to complain how retarded those performances were, but now i seem to miss them. mebe cuz we're leaving skl for good in a couple of weeks tym. no more uniforms, no more such strange performances, no more paternalistic treatment by our teachers. HAPPY CHILDREN's DAY! haha...

hmmm...went kbox for the first tym wif ahwei and shaun yesterday at cineleisure. although it was ex...(imagine paying $24 dollars to sing in front of a screen).but it was realli enjoyable. for once sang my hearts out like nobody's business but of course didnt noe how i sounded of course. haha...ah wei's singing...wow...first tym heard her sing...n...hmmm...i'm lost for words. shaun's was ok...haha i understand cuz so mani songs were too high for us. but luv it anyways.

A's in 30 DAYS. diu. tt truth stinks.