4th November 2007

wow.its november already! few more days n it'll be the end of Alevels and soon, the NS. i was talking to my mum tis morning, and i realised tt my mum is a very understanding, very caring and a very mature thinker. and i told her tis: "i feel tt u're a very special mother"

i'm serious.my mum is someone hu believes on upgrading herself constantly,mentally i mean. as in...she likes to attend all those marriage talks,family talks and she even recently attended a counselling course to get her diploma in it. she's a very positive woman. haha...i dunno why i'm writing tis here, but i juz felt...inspired to write it.haha.

she was telling me, how her marriage life is a failure and once she thot tt her life is a complete failure. she told mi she once thot tt her life was always at its trough and nvr reaches its peak. she felt very sad everytym in the past. but somehow or rather, she has transformed her thinking. now she thinks tis way: "my life is not a failure. i've onli failed in one aspect of my life. i've got many friends.which shows tt i've not failed in my character. i can cook for children. i've not failed as a mother. i can manage my garden. i've success in my hobby.however i've failed in my relationship. so i'll go learn more abt it so tt i can teach my children on how to manage their relationships. "

after my mum said all these. it realli dawned on me what a mum i have. although i've always been full of admiration for tis woman, but wad she said 2dae realli made me felt more certain abt it. my mum is a great woman. perhaps my dad doesnt noe how to appreciate her. but realli...she's a great mum,a great sister (to my uncle and auntie), a great child (to my grandpa and grandma) and she's a great wife too.

my mum told me b4 a long time ago that if i were to have a girlfriend next tym, i muz treat her with lots of love and care and i muz learn to respect her always. i've always seen my dad and mum quarrel in the past and my mum is always crying after tt. i could really feel how hurt she was.

dear and i were talking abt not quarreling for at least 6 mths but it realli nvr occured to me tt we'll quarrel. of course tt's pretty idealistic,but i realli hope we wouldnt. i realli love her and i hope tt the way i'm feeling for her now would last forever. my parents did not have a successful relationship,so i MUZ learn from their mistakes and not make them in mine. but i MUZ also at the same tym,learn from my dad the kind of unconditional love he shows us, and from my mum how to be a level headed thinker and be able to handle all situations well.

i've also come to another conclusion. if i were to be able to shower my girlfriend with lots of love, and also always be very cool and calm, i muz start from those around me: my friends and family and perhaps strangers. i've always been very impatient wif my brother and i always flare up to snatch the computer from him.so from today i'll learn to talk to him nicely and be nicer to everyone. in tt way...it'll condition me to become someone hu's always loving and caring and calm.

oh.my. i tink i'm becoming so uncle-ish.jialat.hmmm...anw...i do hope wad i juz wrote made sense.haha.