title: away frm skl...

there can be nothing better than a break frm anything else in the world. imagine taking a break, frm all troubles, work, everything in the world...u dun have to manage relationships, dun have to bother abt work, ur health. juz imagine tt u r an immortal, relieved frm all mortal woes. how wonderful can tt get? how wonderful can tt get....?

my grandma is down wif depression. should have guessed it frm as early as the beginning of tis year. she's getting more naggy, more desperate to find someone tt she can communicate wif, more hot-tempered, more violent. she's being diagnosed yesterday, when my aunt, uncle, dad n mum brought her down to see a doctor. n furthermore, my dad n mum's relationship was so strained fer the past few weeks tt it seemed tt they were gonna divorce. n my dad mentioned tt to me juz a few days ago. abt divorcing wif my mum. i got nothing to sae xcept telling him to "carry on wif it so as long as he feels tt tt works out best fer the both of them". i mean, c'mon, y hang on to a relationship tt has become "stale", or in other words, lack of love. wad is the purpose of a marriage...its to give each other love n support. n i found the lack of these in my parents. well...my grandma's depression seemed to have brought them a little closer...at least they talk now...at least it seemed tt my grandma's depression had ended their cold war.

i juz hope...tt all of these problems would not happen to mi when i grow up. having parents tt is suffering frm all kinds of ailments. not tt i do not wish to take care of them, not tt i do not wish to be burdened, but i do not wish them to suffer, and my kids to suffer. cuz...currently, i juz can't stand my grandma sometimes when she scolds the maid n my poor bedridden grandfather fer no apparent reason. its vexing u noe...n sometimes i juz wish to juz disappear frm home...so tt i do not have to hear her scolding and complaining abt everything under the sun.

affairs of the heart...they r so...so...vexing...so complicating...how do u noe whether u like a girl? how would u noe tt u r not juz attracted by her looks? how would u differetiate between love n infatuation? how would u noe tt a girl likes u? erm...4get abt all of them dude...they'll juz mess up ur life. haiz...but i realli wish fer a companion. someone tt u can spend time wif...someone whom u can pour ur heart out to...someone whom u can rely on at all moments...someone who cares...someone hu u can go out wif so tt u do not have to roam shopping malls all by urself. i mean...C'MON! every guy wants a girlfren rite? okok...wadeva lar...hahaz...

2dae is service learning day. do not have to go to skl. yeah! can slp longer. hahaz...n we have to go to tis day care centre in sengkang. ok...some kids r realli rebellious, esp. some of the older girls...cuz they r so..."ah-lian" i m in charge of the p4s...n its juz hilarious to see them. cuz they r so innocent, so carefree...they juz play...seeing the smile on their faces juz gives mi a sense of joy. there's tis guy frm nan chiau primary under my care...(oops...i 4got his name). he's juz so hilarious...joker. hahaz...he imitates his teacher's every movement, n juz shares some lame jokes wif mi. n i juz can't stop laufing at how ridiculous he can get. hahaz....n he even said tt xuan feng is ha;f malay half indian. hahaz...during games...its super corny. we r playing poison ball. then choon kiat got hold of the ball. threw...n it hit mrs. ang on her chest. hahaz... n the whole S19 was like laufing away...saying tt he's a goner fer bio liao...cuz mrs. ang is gonna fail every single paper he takes. hahaz...a gd lauf. but i tink mrs. ang's hurt or sthg...cuz its like i can hear the impact lar...omg...

oh...n clarence is oso damn farni...kip saying tis p4 girl damn chio...n 10 yrs down the road he will go chase her. hahaz...then on our way back frm the mama shop, clarence was complaining abt the lump beneath his chest. n he was worrying so much tt its breast cancer. hope tt he will be fine though.

i dun realli like service learning, but it was indeed a good opportunity to get out wif ur classmates. spend a day wif them, understanding them better...expose urself to kids, n to understand wad a lovable bunch of ppl they are. its a good break frm skl...n its meaningful too, cuz its cip...n summore can earn cip points. hahaz...but well...bonding wif ur classmates n skl mates is the main issue. tis day, will be etched into my mind 4eva...