27th January 2008

so i booked out alr.my first ever booked out.but i'm going in today again.at 7.10pm. i'm super sianz.being emo emo boy, for no reason i cried when i was packing my bag. putting my uniform my admin t-shirt, my singlets, my shorts, socks and wadeva there is to pack.i juz teared.i swear tears came out for about half an hour.i stopped.then my sis came in n hugged me.then i cried again.wad the fuck.

i realli miss home to bits.2 days in the outside world is like so short.i miss all the attention i get from my family.their concern their love.n everyone's super nice to me when i'm back.my dad was beaming when i got into his car on friday.even my uncle who rarely smiled has got this radiant smile wide across his face when he picked me up wif my dad at pasir ris mrt station. n oh boy am i super mighty glad to see them. and there was dear. when i met her later at nite on friday.i juz hugged her and juz didnt felt like letting go.cuz i missed 2 weeks of hugging her.holding her hands.and i miss juz blabbering rubbish and lame what-nots to her.talking to her.everything. and there was my bros too. jason and weili. called them and talked to them.how i miss hanging out wif them doing stupid stuff, pouring my hearts out to them. and of course all of my wonderful frens out there whom i've talked to or met during my short 2 days book out.i miss ur to bits.

so what went thru my mind when i was crying.of course there was home, my parents my brother and sister.i miss talking to my mum,my dad and fighting wif my brother. and esp esp my sis.cuz she's the one i always talk to when i'm vexed altho she usually juz nods her head and dun give any solutions.haha. AND THERE'S DEAR!!! she fell ill when i was away. a bad bad cough.bad till she has to hold her breath to talk to me when i call her at nite.it pains me.how i could not be there for her to take care of her, to give a pat on her back when she coughs.how i could not be wif her on valentine's.how i could not be there to struggle wif her during her impt examinations when she gets into uni.and how much lesser tym i have for dearie and how much lesser tym i wld have to prepare small gifts for her.and there's all these crazy stories in army about couples breaking up.all of these got me super emo and made me cry.haha.fuck the emo kid man.

ok.enuf of emo stuff.so what went on in 2 weeks of my life? seriously, seriously ah.army life is quite ok.all the physical stuff are actually quite fun.n i love trainings except for the stupid long warm-ups which we have to perform for EVERY SINGLE PHYSICAL TRAINING IN THE DAY.=.=" what suck abt army is tt u've no freedom to do ur own stuff.trainings ALWAYS cut into ur admin time (the tym where u can do ur own stuff at nite).lights out are at 2230 hrs but trngs/lessons/RO always end at ard 10+. so means no admin tym. and I'M ALWAYS STRUGGLING TO KEEP AWAKE DURING LECTURES, cuz they're so freaking bloody boring.but all the new frens i make there,esp my bunk mates are realli fun.talk cock to them haha. and they call me spiderman in there cuz they sae i look like one when i hang on the pull-up bar.lolx.and the crap they can come up wif is like...woah.

but still they're some realli f-up sergeants and corporals but there are realli realli nice ones, esp the ones i'm under.so ya i guess i'm pretty lucky. its the first tym i've been away from home and everything for such a long tym.and i haven been thru such regimentation b4 (cuz ppl nvr in uniform grp b4 ma) so ya i wasnt used to it at first, but pretty much used to the shit i've got to do and the schedules and time limits i've to meet.

oh ya.i got some knee pain on my right knee on monday b4 SOC (standard obstacle course) and i fell out of trng for tt day. went to the MO to get it checked and got 3 days excuse. but super regretted it cuz no trng means have to do sk like wash toilet run ard and doing all those what-nots and wait at the medical centre was like woah.super long.

n there was this vaccination day where we got vaccinated against thyphiod, polio and tetanus.n its super fucked up cuz we had to stand in the middle of two medics and receive vaccination jabs for thyphoid and tetanus simultaneously, one on each arm.=.=" heng the polio one is juz drinking one.haha.

oh oh.n coughs are pretty common in tekong.they call it the tekong cough.ya so ppl enlisting in april dun nid get freaked up and go the the MO for tt.not worth it.lolx.

overall army still sux.i miss the outside world.goodbye everyone.i shld be out on friday again.i shall now go back to enjoy my last few hours of freedom.haiz.and to everyone.juz sms me anything random.anything oso can.i'll be damn happy to receive anything from anyone.haha.

didnt i juz told emo kid to get lost.why is it back again? haiz.